Im thinking , always thinking about everything . I look at my hand when im cold and I feel what Im thinking of . I start having flashbacks . I miss you so much . Most importantly , I know , that I love you . Its so hard to even fight off this feeling . Yes I know I lied , if your reading this I know you must be thinking why I lied when you asked me “what feeling can’t you fight off ?” I have my reasons . I can’t speak my heart out to what I feel for you . Its undescribable , beyond words . Sad to say not everyone believes in love but it doesn’t matter because I’ve felt it and I know how it feels . I’ve felt the food not going in even though I’ve eaten a bite . I’ve felt the mental torture when I lay on my bed thinking about you , until today . For you , it just might be the number of months that I’ve liked you . But for me , its about loving you . I’ll leave . Yes I will after I’ve given you what you deserve . Don’t suspect my intentions because , I’ll never hurt you no matter how much I’ve been through . I’ve convinced myself , told myself never to love again . I can’t erase your memories and I certainly can’t erase you out of my mind and heart . Im deeply in love . Sorry . I forgot that the word does not exist in your vocabulary . Be happy in future and may whoever treat you better then I have .

It doesnt have to be what you always want it to be . Sometimes , your just reluctant to face facts , the other times , you just cant face them . Your so indulged in your own world , you dont see what others , or should I say the one(s) you love , want :( Its not you who is to be blamed , its just someone else whom i dont wanna talk about . All above , im sure of one thing . One thing that’ll never change , would be who I am . I used to think this world was full of love , until one day when I realised , there’s no such thing . I used to have a gasp of hope that someday , I’ll be able to talk out my heart . I felt the intensed sinking feeling , knowing how I’ll have to accept it as much as I wanna let it go . Its become so tough , the only thing I can try to do , is convince myself . Convince myself that , I shall be happy one day . But , how can one be happy when you know there’s a stain which can never , be removed ?

Im one tough person , thats what everyone assumes . But assuming is something which’ll mock you when you find out th real truth . Im goofy with my friends , smiling even though I know how im feeling . I try not to let it out , but somehow the people close to my heart figure it out .. I really dont know , if its a good thing or bad thing . Im hoping its a bad one , but I think it should be a good thing , dont you ? :)

As time ticks by , I realise nothing lasts forever . I dont wanna say more , its just better to end it here then go further and ponder and let those whom I dont wanna let know , get an idea of whats really at th back of my head . Oh , a hint ;) - Never fall for anyone from th bottom of your heart :(

The day doesnt feel like one. Its been so unbelievable that we’ve got to bear what we dont want to. If someone told you off right where you were , you wouldnt backfire on him/her ? Sure you would . Its not like we don’t have an option, really, to get to know the other side of a person’s calibre. We just happen to have a curiousity for some reason. Make a right choice , by now you’ve got to realise the difference between the right and the wrong. Even though the right may seem wrong at some point , do what your mind tells you to. Believe & have the confidence. When you’re at your highest peak , at best , then only you will feel the power to make a wise decision.

It takes time for success and hardwork to pay off. Some get it instantly, some get it after a tough phase of prayer and wishes. Why isit that life cant be fair when one works hard trying to achieve what they want? Why is the priority not there for the ones that really keep high hopes that they’ll bring success into their life? Life is so unpredictable you cant tell whats coming next , obvious aside.

Always in life, you have someone special you dire the utmost care & concern. For that special someone , whom you were so eager to meet , you’re like almost there, making the efforts when suddenly your efforts are gone in vain. Everything goes back to square one but yet so much changes have taken place.Its shattering when you wished everything went well , everything so swift and beautiful, gone just like that, and life goes on.

If I ever ask for anything  , i would ask not for myself but for the people i want to be happy. Life is short so spend it wisely. Let those, who make and effort, be part of your life cause at the end of the day , these are the people who’ll be standing by yourside. Let happiness spread across your heart and not dismay yourself with problems, cause in every problem you face, you gotta look on the bright side.

We cant ask , we cant tell . We can only hope that everything goes just well .

And so , the first day(!) of getting a “blog” and expressing absolutely whatever i totally want to (:D) say ! Im feelin` awesome todayyyyyy , as always . FIRST OFF - I’ve been through a few incidents lately , where life has taken a big turn for me and my loved ones. Its been a tough phase , but yet i’ve got through it for th time being. Honestly , i feel great right yet. SECONDLY - To whom i find special , you guys will always be special for me even tho we have quarrels and arguments. All these years have not gone wasted with you guys around me, else i wouldnt really have figured out “the real me”. LAST BUT NOT LEAST - I wanna conclude that i love all those people that’ve been there and will be thr for me always no matter what. I owe you a big THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart and top of my soul ! :D Hope to hannngout with you guys soon alrighto ! Love you peeps :)